Dance of a Lifetime

My life is a ball. My friend pointed out to me the first week I was here how my relationship was with everyone. I'm like a lost puppy. Everyone likes me, but no one really has a deep attachment to me. Eventually I'll get hit and everyone will be sad, but then they'll get a new one. He said it again yesterday, and I realized how completely true it is. I hang out with a ton of people, but it's simply superficial with everyone. It's the same back home though, so I suppose you get used to it. Though when everyone constantly points out your faults it's annoying. I mean everyone has feelings, and I may be good at laughing everything off but it still hurts. Y'know?

We wear the mask that grins and lies,

It hides our cheeks and shades our eyes,-

This debt we pay to human guile;

With torn and bleeding hearts we smile,

And mouth with myriad subtleties.

Why should the world be over-wise,

In counting all our tears and sighs?

Nay, let them only see us, while

We wear the mask.

We smile, but, O great Christ, our cries

To thee from tortured souls arise.

We sing, but oh the clay is vile

Beneath our feet and long the mile;

But let the world dream otherwise,

We wear the mask!
-Paul Dunbar Lawrence

So I suppose this is a welcome?

Welcome to the Masquerade.